I just finished reading "Tituba of Salem Village". (Great Book) It depicts the hysteria around the Salem witch trials from an "accused" point of view. It really made me think about how much dishonesty is in our world. A very good friend of mine just came through the trial of her life in which she was accused of doing something that she didn't do (& never would have thought of doing). She was cleared of all charges!!! Thank God for his blessings. On Wednesday I am going to be having my State hearing in which I have to dispute allegations against my character & behavior in a previous job. It amazes me how easily people accuse others of things that didn't happen or distort a situation that did happen into something bad. I am so thankful that I have God on my side. I'm not exactly sure what to expect when I get there, but I know that God has his hand on the situation & whatever the outcome, it is what God allows to happen.
I have been reading (& listening to) some great books lately. "Dark Light", "Honeymoon", & "Beach Road" by James Patterson. "The Spider King", "A Horse Called September", & "Tituba of Salem Village". All in the past month! Can you tell I have been bored? lol
Well, I hope everyone has had a great week & weekend. I had a fun time today at out reach!! (hint hint) For all of you who missed it. Next week is prayer at 9:30 and Outreach at 10:00. Hope to see everyone there!!
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Restless
Lately I have been quite restless. I am anxious for the school year to start, but more so I am anxious for my State Hearing to take place on the 23rd. I now have a lady, whom I worked with, who is willing to speak on my behalf. She has already spoken with my Union Representative, Janet Crean (Crane), and I am meeting with her tomorrow for lunch so we can go over the information that she is willing to refute, if she is called upon. I am so excited! It has been a real rollacoaster of thoughts, emotions, and dreams. Sheesh! The dreams I have been having! Some are so crazy I wake up thinking I am in that reality. (Very weird feeling)
As of late I have been establishing a lot of change in my life. Such as the way that I present myself, what I am eating (it is hard to change one's diet quickly), exercising regularly, getting up early and being productive in my daily habits, reading my Bible every morning & night, and so much more. My thought process has been a special focus of mine. I have been so intent on changing it, I have been prone to recurrent headaches upon waking in the morning. This morning especially. It was so bad this morning that I elected to stay in bed and do nothing. It probably made it worse, but that's what I did. =)
For those of you who happen to read this, and are privileged enough to be going to the 1st Annual P.E.A.K. Youth Conference in Tulsa, OK. Are you excited or what!?!?!? I can't wait until we get there! I feel like I have been waiting for this since I came back to the church, even though I didn't know it was going to be happen until this year.
Speaking of the past few years, so much has happened. On January 5th, 2007, I moved out from living with my ex-boyfriend to living on my own (and since then I have moved 4 times, YUCK), and started my new life in the revelation of who God truly is to me. I have never had revelations like what God has given me in the past 18 1/2 months. Since the beginning of the year, it seems as if God speaks to me daily in tha still small voice of his. (Isn't it weird how sometimes thoughts that resound in your own voice seem somehow divine?) Even in the smallest things like what people say, or (for instance) today I was reading "The Spider King" which is the story of Louis XI of France. In the story it relates how he suffered from seizures. A rare symptom that occured after a two of the (recorded) seizures was a feeling of pure bliss and an attitude of complete positiveness. Nothing could go wrong and no one could perturb him out of this blissfulness until the "spell" had passed. (I wrote all that to say this) At a time when he was almost at war with the Duke of Burgundy, he went to meet with the Duke & parley (negotiate) terms of a treaty to bypass war. His blissful attitude completely confused the Duke & his advisers. The result of his positive attitude confusing the Duke saved his life from the mistake of entering the castle ungaurded.
I guess what I am trying to say is that having a good attitude seems to effect the outcome of any negative situation in a positive way. I have been learing that quite soundly as of late. =) Even if the result seems like it foils human plans of success, I have come to rely on the fact that whatever happens, it is because God allowed it to. The result is all apart of God's divine plan to teach me a lesson. =) In each lesson that I learn, I become more inept to deal with each increasingly difficult situation that comes my way. By the time I am in my retirement years I will be writing books on the lessons I've learned. =)
Yipes! It's almost 1 o'clock!! Gotta catch some ZZZ's! Hope you enjoyed my ramblings!
As of late I have been establishing a lot of change in my life. Such as the way that I present myself, what I am eating (it is hard to change one's diet quickly), exercising regularly, getting up early and being productive in my daily habits, reading my Bible every morning & night, and so much more. My thought process has been a special focus of mine. I have been so intent on changing it, I have been prone to recurrent headaches upon waking in the morning. This morning especially. It was so bad this morning that I elected to stay in bed and do nothing. It probably made it worse, but that's what I did. =)
For those of you who happen to read this, and are privileged enough to be going to the 1st Annual P.E.A.K. Youth Conference in Tulsa, OK. Are you excited or what!?!?!? I can't wait until we get there! I feel like I have been waiting for this since I came back to the church, even though I didn't know it was going to be happen until this year.
Speaking of the past few years, so much has happened. On January 5th, 2007, I moved out from living with my ex-boyfriend to living on my own (and since then I have moved 4 times, YUCK), and started my new life in the revelation of who God truly is to me. I have never had revelations like what God has given me in the past 18 1/2 months. Since the beginning of the year, it seems as if God speaks to me daily in tha still small voice of his. (Isn't it weird how sometimes thoughts that resound in your own voice seem somehow divine?) Even in the smallest things like what people say, or (for instance) today I was reading "The Spider King" which is the story of Louis XI of France. In the story it relates how he suffered from seizures. A rare symptom that occured after a two of the (recorded) seizures was a feeling of pure bliss and an attitude of complete positiveness. Nothing could go wrong and no one could perturb him out of this blissfulness until the "spell" had passed. (I wrote all that to say this) At a time when he was almost at war with the Duke of Burgundy, he went to meet with the Duke & parley (negotiate) terms of a treaty to bypass war. His blissful attitude completely confused the Duke & his advisers. The result of his positive attitude confusing the Duke saved his life from the mistake of entering the castle ungaurded.
I guess what I am trying to say is that having a good attitude seems to effect the outcome of any negative situation in a positive way. I have been learing that quite soundly as of late. =) Even if the result seems like it foils human plans of success, I have come to rely on the fact that whatever happens, it is because God allowed it to. The result is all apart of God's divine plan to teach me a lesson. =) In each lesson that I learn, I become more inept to deal with each increasingly difficult situation that comes my way. By the time I am in my retirement years I will be writing books on the lessons I've learned. =)
Yipes! It's almost 1 o'clock!! Gotta catch some ZZZ's! Hope you enjoyed my ramblings!
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
The blessings of God are many!
OK! I haven't posted in almost a month! My goodness I am lazy! lol
Since then, I have a new candidate to take my apartment! A lady named Amy from Redding. She is really nice & just got a job at Shriner's Hospital. She came to see the place yesterday & really liked it. She is turning the application AND the credit check fee to my landlord on Friday!! YAY!! She was in town today with her mom apartment shopping & came by to show her mom that place. She told me that out of all the apartments she had seen she liked this one the best. All of the were either complete dumps or in raunchy neighborhoods. (YAY!! She likes my place!) lol So that is cool!
Another cool thing happened! As a lot of you know I lost my job with the State of CA in February. Well, I contested it & a few days ago I got a letter with a hearing date!! July 23rd @ 4pm!! Tomorrow I go to meet with a Union Representative so that she can look over my paperwork & get things in order for the hearing. The original Union Rep I had was a very brash lady. She kinda scared me. lol Well she works part-time now so she isn't going to be my union representative any longer. =)
I am excited, things look like they are changing for the better!
AND NOW! For the best news of the day!!! (drum roll)
MISHA AND CYLAS ARE COMING TO TOWN THE DAY OF MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! They are going to be here a week from Friday! (7/4/08)
I can't wait! Just in time for me to move into my new place, which is one block away from Maria & a block or so away from the best C&C directors in the World! The Wilder's!!!
Well, my fingers are about to fall off from typing. lol
See everyone tomorrow at C&C!
Since then, I have a new candidate to take my apartment! A lady named Amy from Redding. She is really nice & just got a job at Shriner's Hospital. She came to see the place yesterday & really liked it. She is turning the application AND the credit check fee to my landlord on Friday!! YAY!! She was in town today with her mom apartment shopping & came by to show her mom that place. She told me that out of all the apartments she had seen she liked this one the best. All of the were either complete dumps or in raunchy neighborhoods. (YAY!! She likes my place!) lol So that is cool!
Another cool thing happened! As a lot of you know I lost my job with the State of CA in February. Well, I contested it & a few days ago I got a letter with a hearing date!! July 23rd @ 4pm!! Tomorrow I go to meet with a Union Representative so that she can look over my paperwork & get things in order for the hearing. The original Union Rep I had was a very brash lady. She kinda scared me. lol Well she works part-time now so she isn't going to be my union representative any longer. =)
I am excited, things look like they are changing for the better!
AND NOW! For the best news of the day!!! (drum roll)
MISHA AND CYLAS ARE COMING TO TOWN THE DAY OF MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!! They are going to be here a week from Friday! (7/4/08)
I can't wait! Just in time for me to move into my new place, which is one block away from Maria & a block or so away from the best C&C directors in the World! The Wilder's!!!
Well, my fingers are about to fall off from typing. lol
See everyone tomorrow at C&C!
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Turning Frustration Into Faith
As many of you may know, I am in the process of moving, or at least trying to. =) In the past two weeks I thought I had someone lined up to take over my place. She changed her mind at the last minute but said her cousin wanted to take the place. They were supposed to come see the place last night, but never showed. Needless to say I was a litte frustrated & worried. Hoping they just didn't show up and nothing happened to them on the way up here.
SO, this morning I got a call from a really good friend of mine (at 7:00!), when I told her what happened, she reminded me that everything happens for a reason. Since they didn't show up, it was most likey for a good reason. They could have been crazy people or God had someone else in mind to take my place, I should not be frustrated & rely on God. Something she said is SO true: "Whenever we try to control a situation, that is when we Loose control." After we got off the phone I prayed that God's will be done in this situation. I got onto Craigslist and started looking for a new candiate. I e-mailed this guy who lives in AZ and is moving out here for a job. A few minutes later I got an e-mail from him asking me to call him immediatley, he was very interested. We spoke for a while and he wants the place!! God is so awesome! I don't want to count my eggs before they hatch, but it would be so awesome if this happened.
I woke up frustrated but when I left for work I was thanking God for his blessings and favor. The power of positive thinking! lol How many times have I heard that? =) It works!
I know that a lot of the time it's hard for me to rely on God instead of myself & trusting him to work things out for the best. Lately I feel like I am continually asking something of God and not giving enough in return. Has anyone else ever felt that way? Maybe that is a stupid question since God can do anything....
Well see everyone at Coffee Break tonight!
SO, this morning I got a call from a really good friend of mine (at 7:00!), when I told her what happened, she reminded me that everything happens for a reason. Since they didn't show up, it was most likey for a good reason. They could have been crazy people or God had someone else in mind to take my place, I should not be frustrated & rely on God. Something she said is SO true: "Whenever we try to control a situation, that is when we Loose control." After we got off the phone I prayed that God's will be done in this situation. I got onto Craigslist and started looking for a new candiate. I e-mailed this guy who lives in AZ and is moving out here for a job. A few minutes later I got an e-mail from him asking me to call him immediatley, he was very interested. We spoke for a while and he wants the place!! God is so awesome! I don't want to count my eggs before they hatch, but it would be so awesome if this happened.
I woke up frustrated but when I left for work I was thanking God for his blessings and favor. The power of positive thinking! lol How many times have I heard that? =) It works!
I know that a lot of the time it's hard for me to rely on God instead of myself & trusting him to work things out for the best. Lately I feel like I am continually asking something of God and not giving enough in return. Has anyone else ever felt that way? Maybe that is a stupid question since God can do anything....
Well see everyone at Coffee Break tonight!
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Survival In the Event of Disaster
Read this article: http://green.yahoo.com/news/ap/20080524/ap_on_re_us/environmental_survivalists.html
I don't know if this will happen or not, but it made me think about the fact that we are in the end time. Now is the time to ready ourselves spiritually, for those of you who haven't. Take a leap of faith into God's arms and run into a life of love with him. It is becoming more evident the example that The Rock Church leadership has portrayed is the way that I want to live. They are truly happy with themselves, they are being fulfilled by fulfilling God's purpose, and they want for nothing. If this does happen before the rapture (BIG IF) I know that God will be whom I rely on. Of course I will be growing my own food...Thankfully my mother taught us girls how to have a garden when we were younger. (I'm jealous of Misha's garden) lol
OK Enough Glum! It was just a thought I had about our world at this time. Get out there and plant a garden, whether it be physically or spiritually, watch what you plant grow as you care for it. It's a great feeling!!
See Ya'll at church!
P.S. These are Zoo Babies of 2008 SO CUTE!!!!
http://www.budgettravel.com/bt-srv/gallery/0805_ZooBabies/index.html?jumpToPic=0
The last one depicts me perfectly in the morning. LOL
I don't know if this will happen or not, but it made me think about the fact that we are in the end time. Now is the time to ready ourselves spiritually, for those of you who haven't. Take a leap of faith into God's arms and run into a life of love with him. It is becoming more evident the example that The Rock Church leadership has portrayed is the way that I want to live. They are truly happy with themselves, they are being fulfilled by fulfilling God's purpose, and they want for nothing. If this does happen before the rapture (BIG IF) I know that God will be whom I rely on. Of course I will be growing my own food...Thankfully my mother taught us girls how to have a garden when we were younger. (I'm jealous of Misha's garden) lol
OK Enough Glum! It was just a thought I had about our world at this time. Get out there and plant a garden, whether it be physically or spiritually, watch what you plant grow as you care for it. It's a great feeling!!
See Ya'll at church!
P.S. These are Zoo Babies of 2008 SO CUTE!!!!
http://www.budgettravel.com/bt-srv/gallery/0805_ZooBabies/index.html?jumpToPic=0
The last one depicts me perfectly in the morning. LOL
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Leap of Faith
I have been talking to my family and a few good friends about the direction my life is taking recently. I have come to this conclusion...I can either leap in faith and know that God will be the ground I land on or walk in the same rut I have been slowly climbing out of. Talking with someone today, they gave me advice of figuring out which direction I want/need to go...I need to work on myself first before I become who I want to be. Funny how I was writing that I want to become this certain type of person in my (secret) journal yesterday. =)
My sister's and my Dad have been such a great help to me in getting myself to start becoming who I truly desire in my heart to be.
I can't wait until the end of the month!!!! My night job ends and I get to go to Tuesday night services and C&C again!!!! YAY!!! I have missed them A LOT.
I am thankful for all the lessons that God has taught me in the past year and a half and is continuing to teach me, but I am SO ready for things to start changing. I feel like they are... you know the good feeling you get when things seem to start working out and going smoother? I finally got it! Last wednesday when I was going to the McKinley Park to go walking. I just got this floaty feeling and the day seemed to get actually get brighter.
So to anyone who is reading this and has been feeling like nothing is going right....I know that you may have heard this a thousand times, but....everything works in the end. God has a purpose for what is happening right now, you may not see it right now, but you will. I am learning the lessons that I didn't want to learn before...they are harder to learn right now then they would have been if I had listened when I was younger =) but they are definitely sticking this time around. lol
You know the way gum sticks to your shoe and you LEARN from then on to look where you step? OK bad example, but you get the picture.
Thanks to everyone who has been there for me and telling me what I need to hear even though it's hard to hear at times.
OK....time for another (almost) midnight stroll. hehehe
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My sister's and my Dad have been such a great help to me in getting myself to start becoming who I truly desire in my heart to be.
I can't wait until the end of the month!!!! My night job ends and I get to go to Tuesday night services and C&C again!!!! YAY!!!
I am thankful for all the lessons that God has taught me in the past year and a half and is continuing to teach me, but I am SO ready for things to start changing. I feel like they are... you know the good feeling you get when things seem to start working out and going smoother? I finally got it! Last wednesday when I was going to the McKinley Park to go walking. I just got this floaty feeling and the day seemed to get actually get brighter.
So to anyone who is reading this and has been feeling like nothing is going right....I know that you may have heard this a thousand times, but....everything works in the end. God has a purpose for what is happening right now, you may not see it right now, but you will. I am learning the lessons that I didn't want to learn before...they are harder to learn right now then they would have been if I had listened when I was younger =) but they are definitely sticking this time around. lol
You know the way gum sticks to your shoe and you LEARN from then on to look where you step? OK bad example, but you get the picture.
Thanks to everyone who has been there for me and telling me what I need to hear even though it's hard to hear at times.
OK....time for another (almost) midnight stroll. hehehe
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Thursday, May 15, 2008
Thoughts....
I was talking with my Uncle today and our conversation made my mind start to work overtime.
I have so many things that I want to do. I want to get involved with the community that is why I want to get a degree in Political Science (Government). I also want to get a degree in Psychology because I want to be able to know why people do what they do. So I am thinking of Maybe getting a Masters in Political Science. I really want to make a difference in my community. I am sick and tired of the way society is, I want to change it, as much as I possibly can.
Like Maria said on her blog (http://www.fmlmusack.blogspot.com/) "I would have to say that hard work and perseverance is the key to success." I am so thankful the church family and immediate family that I have. I have needed them so much in the past year and a half. I don't know what I would have done without them.
I just came back from a walk to McKinley Park. It is a beautiful night. It was a nice to be alone with my thoughts out in (city) nature. I think I will go for more "midnight strolls" more often.
Well, I am finally tired.
Happy Birthday to my Friend Emil! He is turning 23 tomorrow.
I have so many things that I want to do. I want to get involved with the community that is why I want to get a degree in Political Science (Government). I also want to get a degree in Psychology because I want to be able to know why people do what they do. So I am thinking of Maybe getting a Masters in Political Science. I really want to make a difference in my community. I am sick and tired of the way society is, I want to change it, as much as I possibly can.
Like Maria said on her blog (http://www.fmlmusack.blogspot.com/) "I would have to say that hard work and perseverance is the key to success." I am so thankful the church family and immediate family that I have. I have needed them so much in the past year and a half. I don't know what I would have done without them.
I just came back from a walk to McKinley Park. It is a beautiful night. It was a nice to be alone with my thoughts out in (city) nature. I think I will go for more "midnight strolls" more often.
Well, I am finally tired.
Happy Birthday to my Friend Emil! He is turning 23 tomorrow.
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