Are you stronger now then you were back then?

I have been thinking about when I first came back to church. Every little thing and at every turn I was thanking God for his many blessings or "casting my cares upon him". Somewhere over the past two years, I seem to have lost some of that closeness and intimacy. Where did it go? I have been asking myself this question a lot lately. Certain circumstances recently have started me thinking along those forgotten intimacies of my renewed relationsip with God. I am finding that I have been discontented with my current spiritual walk as well as my relationships. I have been saying to myself....There has to be something more, something deeper than what I am feeling or doing. I want my life to have meaning...purpose...reasoning behind my motives and desires. Where did that go? How did I loose that along the way? Most importantly, How do I get it back? or at least incorporate it into my life now, if I didn't before.

Yea, I have a semblence of a prayer life and I read my Bible everyday, but where is the depth of my walk with God like I have always desired? When will I get there? or at least feel like I have gained some ground?

So my question of "Are you stronger now then you were back then?" comes to mind. When I first came back to church, and my faith seemed unshakable....was I just a seed that fell on shallow ground springing up almost immediately only to die away quickly? or did one of those delicate little roots take hold of something that was stronger than I.....something that has strengthened me over the past two years into a Godly and righteous woman. The example I have always wanted to be, as Sister Wilson is.....am I finally becoming that person? Is this really the time that God promised would come to pass? If it is....I know there are many more battles to fight, but I know that the little root that found strength in the soil of God and his word, is never letting go no matter what storms may come.

Prayer changes things.....

New Babies All Around!!

Everyone seems to be having babies!! I have a new niece as of November 27, 2008 at 12:04AM (EST). There are at least 3 or more new babies in The Rock Church alone.I was at the hospital for the latest one to be born this morning!!

I don't have many pictures, but that is because I was asleep on the waiting room floor majority of the time. =) The Emary clan and a few of Mariah's family members were there, and majority of us stayed until 4:00AM until we could see Mariah and baby Jasmine Capri Emary!!! She was born at 3:17AM as an 8lb 13oz, 21 inch bundle of joy!!! The Emary clan, Seth Lewis and I didn't leave until almost 5 o'clock. So I didn't get home until 5:30 this morning. Needless to say, I didn't go to school, I didn't wake up until 11:03AM. =)

To Best Friends and Loved Ones

I have been feeling a little melancholy lately. When I was younger the Holidays were a time to look forward to. We would all gather at my Grandma's house in Hollister, CA and have a fantastic time of being with family. Now, 9 years after her passing, it seems like it has all fallen apart, but then again it hasn't. My family may not be all in one place geographically, but we are in our hearts. My family is always one phone call away. For those of you who have gone on before me, I miss you so very much and I can't wait to get to Heaven to see your faces and hug you. That will be the most joyous day. This past Thanksgiving Holiday, I had the wonderful opportunity of spending time with my best friend in the whole wide world =) and his family. It was definitely an experience. I was woken up on Thanksgiving morning by a HUGE dog climbing on the bed and stuffed myself silly for the rest of the day. We all played video games and got loud with each other for not playing the game right. =) So, for those of you who don't know who my best friend is ...Presenting Andrew! Here is a crazy video of us being weird one night...actually him being weird, I couldn't bring myself to act a fool on camera, Sorry! =)~ (Although I do look like an idiot) So this Holiday season, I am thankful for my best friend, his family, my family and my friends, that I have in my life. I wouldn't have been able to get this far without all of you! Love ya'll bunches! (or as Margi {my landlord} would say) Lots O' Love